“Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future, stop figuring out precisely how we feel, stop deciding exactly what we want, and just see what happens.”

Good beautiful morning where ever you are!

I'll tell you a story about deep blue sea which is the most powerful inspiration that I ever had. Unconditionaly, funny, generous, amazing, secret ...

As we were driving in that car I wondered how did that happened. When? Did I actually had time to find myself on a crossroad called knowing-each-other? It's something you don't think about, it is just the way it is. Without any explanations. No time for overthinking; enjoying the moment how it is.

I had a thoughts ...is there anybody who can bring those strange feelings again. Something unknown at the end of the road. Maybe some kind of illicit feeling that nobody ever knows when it comes. I saw a very huge reason to believe that on the other side in this world there is some nice people around us. Someone who can put smile on your face without asking something for return. Someone who isn't afraid to ask, say or answer. Not afraid to do something and not ran away. 

I was thinking again and again how do you explain the feeling you
cannot explain? Is it something you postpone for the near future or is it just one thing you don't wanna talk about? It's always the hardest on the beginning of something, especially if you're so into it. Feeling joy, happines, power ... 
I didn't know in that moment am I really crossing the line of controling my thoughts or making the masterpiece of my life and not saying anything. For the first time; saying something is so difficult. And 'cause of that it's special. Question; -how long?- is on my mind. Yesterday, today and tomorrow I'll just let go. And continue to believe in destiny. 

I never believed in fairy tales and Mr. The-One; I made my own theory about him. Inteligent, with great sense of humor, a man who has a passion and power in his eyes. The one who can say anything he want without surrounding stories. Honestly and directly.  Man who can make me smile anytime, anywhere. That exectly one who can trust me without questioning. I thought about him as someone with whom I can feel safe. Sexy, independent and in the same time good-hearted. My friend and lover. Deep blue, undiscovered sea. 

They say you don't need to know everything in life, just the things you need to be happy. In these waves of irreversible infinite luck; I am trying hard to find things that make me happy. And I like it. Today, even more from yesterday and less than tomorrow. Once, someone whom I'm trying to trust, told me that in life, you have to know your limits. Living your life extremly, with limits. If you are brave enough you can quite completely understand that sentence. 

What do you see when you're looking through the window in your favourite spot in the flat? 

What do you feel when you are standing with Someone-Nice on beautiful place in That-city? 

Is it the picture you cannot erase from your mind and the feeling you wish it won't never stop? 

Sometimes in life when you are not expecting you get the most beautiful and memorable moments. You are just to far from any obstacles. That's the time you see the things you never saw before and for sure hear the things you wanted to hear for a long time. And if you are lucky enough you have someone to share those things with you. With smile and support, always.

It's the strange feeling when you are willing to say anything except the feeling that you really feel. Maybe cause it's something different and you are waiting that right moment. In that moment you will know that you are completely happy; in the top of the world; believing again ...

"Later that day I got thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love you you love, well, that's just fabulous."

"You make me very happy. " Mr. Big

" Yeah, yeah... Put it in writing."  Carrie

xx,E